Reflections for Easter Day 2021

A loss of confidence

How are you feeling as you read or listen to this?  Can you name what it is you are feeling?  Tired?  Or perhaps you’d say exhausted?  Anxious?  Worried?  Angry?  Flat?  Peaceful?  Joyful?  Hopeful?  Perhaps a little bit of one thing and echoes of something else? 


This belatedly posted Reflection was preached on Easter Day in 2021 for ‘Worship in Church’, ‘Worship at Home’ and ‘Worship on Zoom’ in the Lordsbridge Team.


We have experienced a year a long way from what any of us expected.  For most of us, it has curtailed our freedoms and asked us to endure some difficult things.  Many of us have experienced a kind of low-level trauma and have lived with a background of the anxiety caused by a feeling of un-safety.  Some of us are grieving bigger losses; some of us have been confronted with greater traumas.  We have shielded and supported each other and for that I am grateful. 

But this Easter, despite the gradual opening up, many of us are feeling uncertainty, anxiety, unresolved heartache, grief, and emotional or physical exhaustion. And this is having an impact on our sense of confidence.

Have you noticed that too?  I know that things I might have breezed through 18 months ago are giving me greater pause for thought now, or causing more anxiety. And from conversations I have had I don’t think I am alone in that.

If we think that Easter is all about fluffy chicks and Easter eggs and yellow daffodils – wonderful though these things are – then it is easy to conclude that it has nothing to say in the face of this collective uncertainty and lack of confidence. 

But I believe that Easter has a message about courage.

The disciples’ feelings and loss of confidence

If we were to peek in at those close to Jesus this morning 2000 years or so ago.  I wonder how they might answer that question: how are you feeling this morning? 

On Easter morning we can assume without much thought that all the heart ache, grief, uncertainty, and anxiety of the previous few days was resolved with the events of that morning.  But was it? 

When we look at the stories handed down to us, we read about how the disciples anxiously hid in a locked room fearful for their safety; about how when visited by Jesus they, understandably, couldn’t get their heads around the possibility of his being alive; about the two who walked away on the Emmaus Road struggling with the trauma of what had happened three days before; about how those who were fisherman went back to fishing as if their adventure with Jesus was over. They must have felt buffeted by all that had happened: by their dashed expectations, their sense of betrayal, even their anger at Jesus for letting it all happen, for not being the kind of hero they wanted him to be. 

It was at best a very slowly dawning hope. But there was still lots of uncertainty for quite some time. And even when they had begun to believe what they hardly dared hope was possible, that Jesus was indeed resurrected, they must have had little confidence in having a sense of what might happen next.  It had all become so unpredictable.  Despite the hope that they began to believe in, their confidence was, it appears, at a low ebb.

Confidence and courage

I have been thinking over the last few days about the difference between confidence and courage.  Confidence often comes from expectations born out of experience, from an understanding of societal norms, from the mapping of a fairly predictable future, from a sense of one’s own ability to navigate what life throws at you. 

Courage, on the other hand, comes from somewhere different. 

And when we are short of confidence, when we are held back by uncertainty or anxiety; when we feel hesitant or ill equipped for what has changed, when we feel damaged by trauma or depleted by loss, that’s when we need the kind of courage that comes from somewhere deep and profound. 

It took courage for Mary, a woman and therefore not normally considered to be a reliable witness, to tell the men that she had seen Jesus – ‘what? are you mad?’ 

It took courage for the disciples, when visited by Jesus in a locked room, to be open to the possibility of hope rather than closed down by scepticism or despair– ‘don’t be ridiculous!’ 

It was courage that drew Peter to wade from his boat to the shore to meet the Jesus whom he had earlier in fear and anger denied – how much easier it would have been to hide. 

It was courage, and not yet confidence, that walked them all towards the brightening light of this new world’s dawn.

Living with courage

On Easter day we say: ‘all times belong to Him and all ages’.  All times.  Even the difficult times, even the angry times, even those times over the last year when we feel we have just been marking time and waiting for it all to be over.  All our times belong to Christ.  And that gives me courage.

On Easter say we say: ‘Alleluia, Christ is risen’.  Christ is risen. Because He and his resurrection do not belong to the past.  They belong to today.  They are for now.  And for tomorrow and for the next day and the next.  And that gives me courage.

I need courage to face the still uncertain months ahead; courage to be open to hope and creativity despite exhaustion and trauma; courage to reach for new ways of doing and being that respond better to the fault lines now apparent in our society; courage to speak about the resurrection faith that holds us and draws into our future. 

If you can’t yet live again with confidence, then live with courage.  And may the risen Christ be with you.

About Alison Myers

I am Team Rector for the Lordsbridge Team of Churches, a cluster of 11 villages west of Cambridge. Within the Team, I am Vicar of Hardwick and Dry Drayton, and Lead Minister for Pioneering Projects.
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